Good Cop, Bad Cop

I didn't get my usual Summer-job. Which is actually very bad news. I've already booked my Summer vacation and now I don't have the money!!! :(
Well, some of you might ask why I booked my vacation already if I was unsure about the money. Lets say it this way:




This I shot today on my balcony. It has looked more or less like this since the beginning of december. And it has been cold, very cold. And, get this, its snowing again!! Apparently its going to be even colder yet again. I can't take it anymore! I'm serious. So, that's why I booked my Summer vacation, warmth, beach, SUN!
So, now I have two options.

1. Look for another Job, which probably is going to be very very very difficult, because I've only a few weeks off before going away on vacation and who wants to hire someone for just a few weeks, when they can get someone for the whole Summer? Just wondering. And it should be close to where I live, otherwise all the money will be spent on travelling to and from work. So, it doesn't look good, really.
2. Stop buying books!! I probably wouldn't survive...

So, what else is new?

• I've applied for a 5 week internship at the same library I was almost caught as a stalker last week. What irony.
• I handed in my report yesterday
• Lets hope I can deal with the public humiliation on tomorrows and Fridays seminaries..normally I don't handle these very well, lets hope this time is different..
• I've only two episodes of NCIS Los Angeles left to watch :(

Currently reading:

Helt slut

Jag är helt slut idag..det blev en lång dag på jobbet. Började kl 7 som vanligt, jobbade fram till tolv efter en lunchrast jobbade jag på fram till kvart över fem.
Man brukar ju säga att man måste kopiera mycket som sekreterare, men eftersom våran fax-maskin på skrivbordet även är en kopiator så brukar det inte bli så mycket som man måste gå och kopiera framme i lärarrummet. Men idag så skulle jag kopiera ett brev till alla elever i alla klasser..runt 700 elever ..en hel del klasser. Det tog sin lilla tid..fick säkert sitta en timme vid kopiatorn för att utföra detta jobb. Varmt blev det! Med 30 grader ute, sol i rummet och en kopiator som jobbar på högfart...svettigt blev det..och jag satt ju bara och tittade på..haha..sedan fick jag springa till alla olika skolhusen och fördela mina pappersbuntar.
Jag har förresten träningsvärk i benen av att göra ingenting.
Nu sitter jag utomhus..det börjar bli mörkt..och det är en underbar fin kväll...ska dock strax gå och läsa lite i " Girl from Mars" och sedan försöka somna tidigt (en omöjlighet)
Imorron ska det börjas en halvtimme tidigare..får sluta en halvtimme tidigare sen också, men får ingen skjuts så jag måste gå hem en 6 kilometer ungefär.
Annars så händer det inte så värst mycket..Imorron ska jag på bio igen, Coco avant Chanel..får se hur det blir...den här gången är filmen inte dubbad..dock den är på franska..:P

Hej svejs så länge...

Weekend

Finally weekend!
Yes, I know..it's only thursday evening..but I only work four days a week, which is a blessing really. I'm not used to working, I'm not used to getting up early in the morning. And this week has been particularly hard. Working from 7 am to 3 or 4 pm, without a break is quite hard..and the smell in the office...
And I haven't slept much this week. To much to think..so many thoughts keeping me awake at night or giving me nightmares. Not good!

Two days ago I met my two best-friends here at home. One I've known since I was six years old, the other since I was seven or eight. I think its amazing that we still stay in touch. Sure, it's less and less each year.. but it's still great to see each other, reminisce about old times, talk about all the new stuff..and laugh a lot :)
Tomorrow I was supposed to meet an old friend of mine whom I haven't heard a lot of these past years..but he never got back to me about when and where..so I have no idea if the meeting will take place :(

Tomorrow I'm going to sleep late and in the afternoon I'm planning a trip to town..See what it has to offer!

Thats all for now..I'm too tired to think..

Music

I've just enjoyed a long hot bath. I was freezing all day. This morning when I arrived at the school where I work during my holiday an awful smell met my nose. Just really really awful. All windows and doors in the school-building had to be open all day. It took a long time to find the source of the smell. Pupils had to search the whole building but came up with nothing. Finally our cleaner found the source. But it was no good, there was nothing to do. A rat had died in contact with strong power cables down in a slot, and there was no chance to remove it, it'd be too dangerous with the power source and all. So we have to live with it, fanning into all the rooms, freezing all day long.

I didn't have any lunch-break today..but I finished work at 3.15pm, which was nice. Thus I had some free-time alone in the house :), As I said I bathed, listened to good music and finished my book. Good thing that amazon has sent me 3 more books today..hope they'll be here fast!

Soon my dad comes home..time for dinner..maybe I'll try to make some new necklaces later..but I don't think so, I have to go into town first and buy some new stuff for it. Probably on friday.

Tomorrow is a new work-day..in the evening I'll finally meet my friend(s) whom I haven't seen for a year now!!...I'm looking forward to it!

This morning I woke to the music of Lifehouse, I was in this state between sleep/dream ( :) ) and being fully awake, it was completely dark in my room (good thing with not beeing in Sweden right now..haha) and the bed was sooo cosy, with the voice of Jason Wade in my ears...the moment was just perfect! I haven't listened to this particular CD for a very very long time. I remember that I bought it during my summer holidays exactly 8 years ago, after that I never left the house without my freestyle and this CD...so memories are flooding back now. I didn't even know I had this song on my I-pod....

I'm desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind

There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

I'm desperate for changing
I'm starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you

by Lifehouse

Home Sweet Home

Så, då är man hemma igen..i mitt gamla rum. Känns konstigt..väldigt konstigt..

gick upp runt 5 imorse...det var mycket hela dagen..jobbig flygresa...hela dagen har varit jobbig på nåt sätt, inte minst emotionellt.
Nu har jag ont i ryggen..huvudet..ont i magen och jag mår illa.
inte bra ju:(
måste sova nu..ska upp om ca 6 timmar och börja jobba :(